I question God as I untangle my heart from the complexities of a narcissistic relationship. Why did You allow me to marry a narcissist?   God always answers when I ask in sincerity and in faith. With time, I learned: 1) I could not know what I did not know, and 2) God showed me the truth I sought when I was ready to see it.

I question God as I untangle my heart from the complexities of a narcissistic relationship. Why did You allow me to marry a narcissist?   God always answers when I ask in sincerity and in faith. With time, I learned: 1) I could not know what I did not know, and 2) God showed me the truth I sought when I was ready to see it.

I doubted God’s ability to redeem my failed relationship with a narcissist. The soul numbing, intangible ways narcissism wounded my heart convinced me these injuries were, indeed, unredeemable.

While I find my way out of the consequences of narcissistic abuse, I often notice that melancholy moments fuel a sense of deep remorse. However, even though I experience grief, I struggle to identify what I grieve.

As I identified the complexities of my relationship with a narcissist, a mysterious dynamic surfaced—a sense that I belonged to the narcissist. Both his possessive, controlling behaviors and my compliance contributed to this illusion of belonging.

The intense mental struggle and chaos of my narcissistic marriage distracted me from the peace of God. Along with intense spiritual warfare Satan attempts to hijack your peace. God can teach us to break free from old patterns and experience new found peace.

Realizing that the narcissist’s false narrative had contributed to that detachment of my child amplified my anguish even more. I attempted to rebuild my own life and Identified the deception as Satan’s strategy for discouraging my heart and sabotaging my progress.

Acknowledging my desensitized soul from narcissist abuse allowed God to begin the transformation—restoring it to a heart of flesh.

I never felt treasured by my narcissistic spouse by faith I embrace that I am treasured by God.

Acknowledging my contribution for perpetuating the trauma bond of a narcissistic relationship brought me to a new place of freedom.

Healing from narcissistic abuse involves both calming the chaos of my mind as well as enduring the challenging work of grieving.

God created something beautiful out of something dreadful—a miracle only God can perform.

I never considered that I had been betrayed until learning that betrayal is a key component of narcissistic abuse.

I persevered for decades, believing my endurance with a narcissistic spouse honored God but instead revealed to be codependent.

My overflowing love for the narcissist in my life, and the pain of having that love rejected.

A specific event initiated my healing journey. Confusion and stress created constriction of my neck muscles from a life with a narcissist.

Experiencing painful emotions as a direct result of my long-term narcissistic relationship.

I exhausted all strategies for attempting to communicate with the narcissist in my life.

My love for a religious narcissist added an additional layer of confusion to my relationship struggles.

In God’s grace, truth came in small glimpses allowing time for processing and grieving as I began to understand the impact of narcissist.

Sacred moments also readied me to remember God’s grace in other areas of my life—even during times of emotional darkness from the narcissist

I faced a despairing realization—narcissism had been the unidentified source for the challenges in my marriage.

I, too, required freedom from the trauma bonding that developed within my narcissistic relationship.

I still long to be desired by an eager groom, and Scripture describes the ultimate fulfillment of that longing in brilliant detail.