When God Reshapes my Heart

… so that you may love him with all your heart and with all your soul, and live.

 Deuteronomy 30:6

A biblical reference rekindled a somber memory: The Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the hearts of your descendants, so that you may love him with all your heart and with all your soul, and live (Deuteronomy 30:6).

I winced at the awakened memories of holding my newborn sons during their circumcisions. Those painful images, though, inspired me to consider the need for God to "circumcise" my heart from the callouses formed by a lifetime of narcissistic distortions.

The exhausting effort of trying to emotionally connect with a narcissistic father and then with a narcissistic spouse formed calloused areas around my heart. I realized God wanted to remove them—no matter how painful the process.

Deuteronomy 30:6 clarifies God’s ultimate intent for circumcising my heart—so that you may love him with all your heart and with all your soul, and live. As I navigate this circumcision process, I look forward to the end results—loving Him with all my soul and living fully within His love and care. I also anticipate a new joy, inner peace for embracing the life God desires for me—a life with a circumcised heart.

Father, thank You for loving me so completely that You would tenderly reveal anything, including narcissistic abuse, that confuses and distracts me from loving You fully. I look forward to living more fully attuned and with increased freedom to see and respond to Your presence and Your care. Through Your Son, Jesus, I pray, amen.

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