Sight for Blind Eyes

…I have come into this world, so that the blind will see….

John 9:39

Jesus came to provide forgiveness for sins, but I discovered that His forgiveness first requires the ability to see, to see myself as a sinner in need of that forgiveness. A gift of sight ultimately provided the key to my freedom.

Jesus restores multiple forms of sight, both for physical blindness and for the blindness of denial. Reflection allows me to identify what I failed to see as I navigated the rough terrain of a narcissistic relationship.

Ignoring the words and minimizing what clouded my heart rescued me from the overwhelming shock of seeing. The gift of sight, though, that broke through my denial completely altered my world. I recall the room, the chair, and the moment when I saw what I could no longer unsee.

I brought emotional weariness and a carefully edited love letter to share my heart with my narcissist spouse in a way it would be heard. I read it slowly, calmly, and with vulnerability. His devaluing of my effort and of my carefully chosen words exposed what I did not want to see. He neither heard nor valued my words, and for the first time, I saw it. Jesus gave me sight, and I thank Him for the gift.

Father, Thank You for Your patience and wisdom in choosing the moment for the gift of sight. I know that with sight comes responsibility for stewarding what You offer. I treasure Your guidance and tenderness in helping me find my way. May You be glorified in each step. In the name of Your Son, the One who heals the blind, I pray, amen.

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